Paul Park: I say....

It hurts to see you like this.. You are the strongest person in our family and see you laying there, so weak;.....it only brought tears to my eyes. I was hoping to see you sitting up, joking with sisters and nag me how I shaved my head and tell me I'm not focusing hard enough. But with all these tubes in your body and cast over your neck.........I hate the whole world for doing this to you. I thought I could handle it. but I guess it's harder than I imagined. Everyday goes by and my love for you is getting bigger and bigger. And, knowing, there ain't shit I can do to make you feel better is what kills me. I blame myself for living your side. I feel that, this would've never happened if I was here. Why did I go? Why did I leave? Seeing you laying there and trying to hold my tears to show you how strong I am, bust out crying in middle of the street as soon as I left. Im sorry I was such a trouble maker when I was young and Im sorry I left. I should've ju

Essence of me that get u quiver The jokes that brings u to laughter Care that got u curiouser Comfort that made u feel like home Support that made u feel protected Honesty that let u see through me Affection u received made u happy Happiness that made u love me what would u do When im no longer there?